Wooden Hair

there alot going down, at least thats what they'd have me believe. if i carried paper and a pen with me everywhere it would be alot easier to sort all these things out. i keep seeing things my time here as a bad television drama. i mean sure there's a story but the dialogue is somethign to be desired. who writes this shit anyway? so basically what i'm saying is that something big is goign to hapen soon. somthing like a powderkeg ready to go off. perhapos the last bastian of defence, something that will send me back to prince albert for good, never ot return. maybe i'm just making more out of this than it really is. at the very least it keeps me entertained and feeling important.
everyone, go out and see the life aquatic. i thought it was amazing.
apperently wes anderson's next film is a stop animation adaptaion of a Roald Dahl book called "the Fantasic Mr. Fox" i'm confident that wes anderson + Roald Dahl = good things.so they tell me the year is ending....thats good. i think we need a change. use it as a distraction. it will be refreshing to go into the future. to see what the new year has for me. if it will be a year of good music, or a year of love or other such things. as long as it a year of progression rather than stagnation. inspiration rahter than distraction. wait.....i think i contradicted myself.

The Destruction of Folk Music

since i arrived back at my parents house this holiday season, i have been spending most of my time on the computer. mostly just discovering all the new music ive been missing since i have been isolated up north. however, most of what i have been listening to is live tracks by Jeff Mangum of Neutral Milk Hotel. the thing i am most impressed with is a cd he produced not long ago called "orange twin field works: Vol 1". its actually a compliation of bulgarian folk music he recoded at such a festival in 2000, and it absolutley breathtaking. definatley worth a listen, its only about a half hour long.
if you want to know more about Jeff Mangum (my muscial hero) you can check out this article.

there's not much else to say. i dont want to do a holiday entry or anything lame like that. he i am, back and forth from the north. so much to get done. all i can really do is spend all my money getting drunk and forgetting about it. sounds like a plan. cheers.

Moving Pictures, Silent Films

The entries are becoming less frequent as well as less informative. Not for long. I'll will this all up and running. No one needs to hear what I have to say, I realize, however the internet is a place to build ego. Believing that I am important enough for people to willingly search out my opinion on things it what keeps me going. Us lions need encouragement.
that said, lets get on the road.
I don't have television anymore. The only course I have for news is word of mouth and of course the Matthew Good site. Being that I only have internet at school, its hard to even keep up with that. Oh how I would love to have a formed opinion about the Ukrainian election. It would be wonderful to comment on how things are going with Canada vs. The U.S in the star wars missile defense situation. All I have is little bits and pieces of info. I do have this link here. It has to do with the real enemies of the free people. The people who really "hate our freedom" the religious zealots.
don't get me wrong, I have nothing against people involved in organized religion. It can be a beautiful thing. I do not consider the average Christian a religious zealot. The religious zealots are those who give the true meaning of religion a bad name. The true ideals of religion are almost always hope and understanding, never vengeance or hatred. These are the people that would have us believe our culture is being mocked, and has been for 40 years now. People who would like to see time turned backwards so they have something to hate. Once the world accepts homosexuals (which most of us have) What will they have left? Who will they hate then? People with blue yes? People with 6 fingers?
no matter how much, and how justly you hate, god never hates along side you.
the greatest danger to the people of the united states are the Jerry Falwell followers that seem to run their country. They would have us all believe that they are doing god's will. If that is the case, then one nation under god will never, ever be free.

Drinking Merlot

Have you ever thought your dreams control the future? What a weird concept. But I mean if reality is just in our mind, then the subconscious is really all god is. The creator of our reality. I think perhaps as a society we should start to worship our dreams. Well, not worship, but at least be aware of. Our mind is what gives us what we have, what we see, what we believe. Our mind is really what makes us. When we die, we live forever in our subconscious. What a concept. I'm a born cult leader. Sadly, I was also born with no ambition.

moving on, I'm trying to decide if there's always been this much turmoil in the world. It seems like an extraordinary time, or is it? Is it just that the internet and the ever-expanding news media provides us all with so much more than was previously available to us? Or is it, perhaps some sign of the apocalypse. Or maybe, we are finally progressing a little bit as a society. The religious right is finally being put in its place buy the expanding leftist movement, especially in north America. Then again, this could just be another one of those peaks in the movemnt. Perhaps like the 60's, this movement will also fall into apathy and be dismissed as a trend. Maybe I'm just ignorant. That's the best I can hope for. Cheers

Hanging From The Wall Tree

Blogging is hard. How do I keep up with the times. I used to have nothing but time to write this garbage, but lately it seems like I've actually been doing work at school. Not that I should complain as I paid $3000 dollars to go here.
I've never been thirstier in my life. All I want to do is drink water all day and I just cant seem to do it. Every thing I take the long walk to to water fountain, I come back here and 5 minutes later , I'm dry as a dry thing. Could it be that I'm replacing water with cigarettes? I'm replacing recording and talking on the phonw with television. What have i become?
you knwo when i started writting the blog I wanted it to be a pool of ideas and information. i wanted it to inform people of cool links, world news and my un-important opinions on these such things. instead I use it as more of a journal. A journal nobody asked for. yey. it can only get better.
today I read some lovley things about canada on the fox news site. Bush comes to cananda and isnt welcomed with open arms. weird.
I guess the general idea in the states was that even though the rest of the world hated their government and policies, they'd always have the friendly north. they'd always be around. kinda like the friend you only call on if you want something. eventually they get fed up. like the popular high school kid asking the nerdy quiet kid do his homework. the popular kid finally finds out that the nerd doesnt actually like him at all. of course then the popular kids repiles with the usual "where would you be with out me"and the "your just a loser anyway" type comments.
don't get me wrong, i like america. I just hate the forign poilices, the religious right, and their news media. the people are A-OK.
anyway, enough of my un-informed political rambling. anyone who read my blog (i.e. : probably no one) check out www.ceasefire.ca
unless of course you actually would like canada to be part of that little star wars missle defence scheme. in that case, you've stumbled onto my blog quite by accident and please go away.

Rock Steady & Ready To Roll

You know, somwhere i've heard that your skin cells compleatley regenerate every 7 years. being that i have just graced my 21st year, i am about 4 months into my new skin. where has everyone gone to anyway?
this new age is the age of the cold north. the cabin and media.
not for too long. my short taste of the hermit life will end with this old year of 2004 and i'll move the foul smelling region of prince albert. it actually does smell. wyerhouser makes but from those devoured forests and casts a foul stench into the air that makes everyone feel nausious. on the plus side, its cheap and i can deal with.
having smashed my sister's car last week and canot afford to be driving 100 kilimeters everday. i have ot move here and start working durring the week. i have no coment on anything else really. except that i learned to upload pictures to the blog. wait.. no i didnt

Rough Dissections

tonight, i was out having a cigarette. i didnt really want one, but i hate for people to smoke alone. i came back to find that my parent's dog had devoured my last 3 slices of pizza. kind of an ominous methaphor for my week thus far. i realize that sound depressing, but at least something is happening to me. without these mishaps, i would have no future stories. in my experience, conversations are built on these stories and if i was to spend all day watching television alone, what would i have to tell you?
Grandaddy has been in my head all day. there's no better feeling that having an album stuck in your head. not just a song, but a whole album. each song pops in to reflect a diferent mood. i'm not entirely sure if thats what makes a great album, or if thats what makes an obsessive personality. i am but a simple man who does posess a physcological degree. all i know is that Sumday by Grandaddy has kept my moods aligned. on the bus to saskatoon when i was feeling kind of down, all i could think of was the song "final push to the sum" right now in my better mood i have "stray dog and the chocolate sahke" in my head. every other song has mades it way into my day, but those are two more prominent examples.
perhaps it my mangled body, or perhaps its certian things finally hitting me, but today has been very epic. do you ever have those days where your moved to tears by the simplest things. my life just maybe shaped by days like that.
i feel liek there is so much creativity inside me. i dont know again if its just the mangled body or if its that i no longer have television. either way, i have somethign ready to go off. i think this album may be out sooner than you think.

Mercury Retrograde

Life is pretty easy, but often has a lot of low points. It would seem silly not to write a nice little blog entry after last night. The number of car I've destroyed is now 3. Driving home from school yesterday, driving my sister's car, I spun out and hit the guard rail on one of those little Saskatchewan bridges. The week before my muffler fell off my car and the mechanic ended up finding about about 30 million things that needed to be repaired. Reading my horoscope for the month of December, I learned that this is because of mercury retrograde. This has been since the end of November and continues until December 20th. By that time I'll be completely broke. Its alright, I'm happier when I'm broke. I may just have to make my Christmas presents this year. Or just refuse to celebrate the birth of Christ. Like anyone actually celebrates that anyway.
moving on, my horoscope has many good thing in it as well. This month will be great, it always is. I just have to avoid doing things that will destroy me. Good month for love the zodiac tells me. In fact, it stated that if you were born on August 12th(my birthday), it will be an especially good month for love. Its nice to be a lion.
all these wonderful things start December 11th. I still have a week to kill. It shouldn't be to hard. I assume most of it will be me dealing with SGI.
let move on to music. Its coming to the time of year where I should be giving out top 5's all over the place. Most importantly, top 5 albums of 2004. Its a hard one. There was a lot of good stuff but not quite the caliber of 2003 or even 2002. For sure the new wilco will be there maybe a shout out to tilly and the wall, Julie doiron, the streets. Well have to see. Also in January two new Bright Eyes CD's are due out. One of them Conor Oberst's tradition sad folk style and the other a more technical CD. He has two ep's out now, one for each album and its sounding good. So already some exciting music for 2005. Maybe we'll even see a new ween record. Maybe even the Jonathan Discovery debut album. Not likely.
I've been hearing a lot about a band called the little wings lately. I'd like to check them out.
either the lights in here are going, or it's my eyes. I don't know and frankly, I don't wanna know. I should probably be on my way. Tonight I bus into Saskatoon. I will acquire my car and hang out with Maegan. Saturday its back to work up north here. Happiness is....

I'm Free

Turn the television off. fuck that feels so good. The most dangerous and addictive habit, it destroys the minds and bodies of us all. Last night my uncle came into my cabin and took back his satelite receiver that I had been using. It needed to be done. Before I had the receiver (Sept 13 - Oct 29) I was all I wanted to be at the lake. I was recidring and writing every night. If I needed a break, I had my DVD's. I still have my game system rented out, but that only lasts so long. For the first time at about 8:30 last night I found I had nothing to do. What a strange and wonderful feeling. I got back to my book that I had stopped reading since acquiring the dish. Ah.
life without television is already so much more rewarding that life with. I'm starting to have my own ideas already. When I talk to people I don't spew out the catch phrase from last night's simpsons episode. I have ideas!
speaking of which, this album I am allegedly making is on the edge of completion. By that I mean most of the pre production is done. I have the bulk of songs, but with all this free time, I predict a few more may be on the way. The best part is that Jeff Pederson of The Fjords is anxiously wanting to help me. I real musician wanting to help me! December is going to be a good month I think. Good for my mind. December 1st... Yesterday, is a good day every year.
I just realized I haven't check my monthly horoscope yet. Excuse me.

Staring Deliciousness in the Face

well here we are another day in the world full of terrible things that i could ignore, but as i have so much time to kill at school, internet news sites and lefteist blogs will not let me. and rightly so. its too bad most people dont have all this time. theres alot of information out here. back to the point, the big issue on my mind is of course the protests in ottawa yesterday. to paraphrase a number of entires onand comments on the Matt Good blog: if you don tact seriously, no one will take you seriously. the news doesnt show the peacful people playing drums and singing songs, they show the agnst ridden wannabe punks who break bottles and smash out the starbucks windows. still a peace protest shoudl never be violent. it seems like no matter how good the intentions are, the left just cant win.
its not true of course, they just need organization. i took this quote today: "First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win." - mahatma Gandhi
passive resistance can be a such a powerful thing. if only those kids listening to slipknot and linkin park knew that, instad of smashing windows and making us passifists look bad.
on a lighter not i hear the halifax protests were much more civalized. leave it to the east coast to show what canada is really about.
i also wanted to write about my day, but it appears i'm out of time.
all i need to say is that tatamrai damacy is one of the funnest video games ive ever played. cheers.